yesterday when i was walking home, i bumped into a  hugeeee mouse. it was trying to cross the ally, and i was walking towards it. I wasnt scared till I saw how big it was, i stopped and make a "ahhh" noise,  and the mouse turn back and ran back to where it was and hide in the bushes. For some reason, that act seemed very cute to me. haha. USually, the rat would just keep running forward, but this mouse, turned and ran back. I thought it was smart. haha

i am going to turn 23!!! by 2016, i will be 30. 30 is such a scary number. i dunno why i m getting worried now. haha.

The pain of being an "office Lady" - I am stuck to a cubicle, even though it is a quite spacious one. I dun like sitting down all day but i cant get up and exercise. There are quite a lot of traffic by my cubicle. I dun want to cause misunderstandings.

I will just la la la la la away now.

i think I m getting old. Today at around 3ish, i feel my legs getting numb from sitting. I don't understand why since I get up quite frequently compare to other ppl. So I went to visit someone 10 floors beneath me. After the visitation, i thought i'd walk a couple of flights to get some exercise. Well, not every floor has re-entry, so after 8 flights of stairs, i found one. But only 2 more flights to my floor, so I walked the other two. It was ..... not that bad. Took me some time to catch my breath, think i should do that more often to get in shape.

I am also having wrist problems which I never had before. Perhaps the mouse pad arm on the desk isnt good. I really dont know what is the right pose to hold the mouse. My arm is parallel to the level of the mouse but it hurts. it really bothers me. aiyaaaaaaaaaa, so ma fan

After I got home, i got on my laptop, then went to lie down on bed, trying to rest my eyes. I did some contemplation. My life is pretty dry. haha. It is better than when I was in Japan. It was really horrible, my days pass so slow, no ups or downs (i guess the up times were when i went shopping). I dreaded waking up, walking into that small office, pretend that I am working. I looked forward to leave the office but only to walk back to my apt and eat and then go online. Cant even remember how i pass those times. Such dark dark memories. I guess it train me to be emotionally strong and independent.

Now, waking up isnt as hard, I don't have to pretend i am working as much, i have more freedom and works that i don't mind doing. Another big difference is I have God and more conscience of that. But life is still a little dry. Work isnt really draining consider that I dun have that much work. how can life be more fun?

I wish I can have access to xanga at work coz then i can write so much. I mean i can write in word and then post it. but i m kinda lazy. sighhhh. it is so much easier to keep everything/emotions inside then to write them out. but writing it helps to sort out the feelings. I intended this xanga thing to be sth for myself to read through when i m retired, to retain memories. I better jot down sth before i forgot.

the first thing I think of is sth I learned about myself (i loveeeeee learning and finding out things about myself) during the Gospel carnival. I am such a Martha person. I really need things to be done and carried out exactly as planned. I get frustrated when the rules arent enforced, because i thought enforcing the rules is being fair to all the players. But, the kids arent all teh same age. WHen i saw how others cared more about the kids having fun, I realized that i was silly. haha. need to change that.

another thing i noticed is that I am becoming more and more impatient with my family member and the ones that are closed to me.  I am easily angered and annoyed.